Lent - Day One - God

I found a devotional that spoke to me

 And from another devotional site:

Exodus 20:1-17 (New International Version)

The Ten Commandments

1 And God spoke all these words:

2 "I am the LORD your God, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery.

3 "You shall have no other gods before me.

4 "You shall not make for yourself an idol in the form of anything in heaven above or on the earth beneath or in the waters below. 5 You shall not bow down to them or worship them; for I, the LORD your God, am a jealous God, punishing the children for the sin of the fathers to the third and fourth generation of those who hate me, 6 but showing love to a thousand {generations} of those who love me and keep my commandments.

7 "You shall not misuse the name of the LORD your God, for the LORD will not hold anyone guiltless who misuses his name.

8 "Remember the Sabbath day by keeping it holy. 9 Six days you shall labor and do all your work, 10 but the seventh day is a Sabbath to the LORD your God. On it you shall not do any work, neither you, nor your son or daughter, nor your manservant or maidservant, nor your animals, nor the alien within your gates. 11 For in six days the LORD made the heavens and the earth, the sea, and all that is in them, but he rested on the seventh day. Therefore the LORD blessed the Sabbath day and made it holy.

12 "Honor your father and your mother, so that you may live long in the land the LORD your God is giving you.

13 "You shall not murder.

14 "You shall not commit adultery.

15 "You shall not steal.

16 "You shall not give false testimony against your neighbor.

17 "You shall not covet your neighbor's house. You shall not covet your neighbor's wife, or his manservant or maidservant, his ox or donkey, or anything that belongs to your neighbor."


Matthew 5:38-48 (New International Version)

An Eye for an Eye

38"You have heard that it was said, 'Eye for eye, and tooth for tooth.' 39But I tell you, Do not resist an evil person. If someone strikes you on the right cheek, turn to him the other also. 40And if someone wants to sue you and take your tunic, let him have your cloak as well. 41If someone forces you to go one mile, go with him two miles. 42Give to the one who asks you, and do not turn away from the one who wants to borrow from you.

Love for Enemies

43"You have heard that it was said, 'Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.' 44But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, 45that you may be sons of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. 46If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? 47And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? 48Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.


Matthew 6:25-33 (New International Version)

Do Not Worry

25"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life[a]?

28"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.


Colossians 3:12-17 (New International Version)

12Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. 13Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. 14And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.

15Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. 16Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom, and as you sing psalms, hymns and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God. 17And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.

James 3:13-18 (New International Version)

Two Kinds of Wisdom

13Who is wise and understanding among you? Let him show it by his good life, by deeds done in the humility that comes from wisdom. 14But if you harbor bitter envy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast about it or deny the truth. 15Such "wisdom" does not come down from heaven but is earthly, unspiritual, of the devil. 16For where you have envy and selfish ambition, there you find disorder and every evil practice.

17But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere. 18Peacemakers who sow in peace raise a harvest of righteousness.






A Walk...

A Walk

My eyes already touch the sunny hill,
going far ahead of the road I have begun.
So we are grasped by what we cannot grasp;
it has its inner light, even from a distance----

and changes us, even if we do not reach it,
into something else, which, hardly sensing it, we already are;
a gesture waves us on, answering our own wave...
but what we feel is the wind in our faces.

-Ranier Maria Rilke

Lord, I want to know You...Day Three

Psalm 20

For the director of music. A psalm of David.
 1 May the LORD answer you when you are in distress;
       may the name of the God of Jacob protect you.

 2 May he send you help from the sanctuary
       and grant you support from Zion.

 3 May he remember all your sacrifices
       and accept your burnt offerings.

 4 May he give you the desire of your heart
       and make all your plans succeed.

 5 We will shout for joy when you are victorious
       and will lift up our banners in the name of our God.
       May the LORD grant all your requests.

 6 Now I know that the LORD saves his anointed;
       he answers him from his holy heaven
       with the saving power of his right hand.

 7 Some trust in chariots and some in horses,
       but we trust in the name of the LORD our God.

 8 They are brought to their knees and fall,
       but we rise up and stand firm.

 9 O LORD, save the king!
       Answer us when we call!

1. Mark every word that has to do with trouble,need, or help.

2. What are the Lord's promises in this psalm?

3. Are there any conditions that need to be met in order for these promises to be fulfilled?

4. According to this psalm, what sets a person securely on high or in a place of security above the circumstances of a situation?

5. On what basis can we set up banners of victory?

6. What does the answer to 5 tell you about the name of God?

Turn you heart's desire into a prayer. Tell the Father your need. Thank Him that He wants to be known by you in greater depth.

The name of the Lord is a strong tower. The righteous runs into it and is safe. Proverbs 13:10

Lord, I want to know You...Day Two

Some trust in chariots and some in horses,
       but we trust in the name of the LORD our God. Psalm 20:7

The horse is made ready for the day of battle,
       but victory rests with the LORD. Proverbs 21:31

Boast in the name of the Lord your God!

"...call upon me in the day of trouble;
       I will deliver you, and you will honor me." Psalm 50:15

Is your heart troubled? Is fear lurking in the shadows of your consciousness? Do you feel insecure about anything at all? If the answer to any of these questions is yes, list your fears, insecurities, and troubles. Then ask God to show you one of His names that will meet your need. When He shows you, tell Him that you will boast in that name.

fears - meeting the mortgage when guys can't pay the rent, eventual physical symptoms of diabetes, that my sons will not come to know God as Savior before Jesus returns, that I will miss the opportunity to say the right things to the guys, that the guys will use, that one who is depressed will harm himself

insecure - strained finances, not meeting job expectations, not capable of meeting the deep needs of my tenants

Lord, I want to know You...Day One

If someone were to ask you to describe God, what would you say? What are the words that come to mind when you think of God?

The name of the LORD is a strong tower;
       the righteous run to it and are safe. Proverbs 18:10

Spirit, eternal, all-knowing, all-present, holy, Father, merciful, awesome, wise, patient, Creator, jealous, loving, provider, protector, rock, truth, immortal, supernatural, healer, comforter...

Who among you fears the LORD
       and obeys the word of his servant?
       Let him who walks in the dark,
       who has no light,
       trust in the name of the LORD
       and rely on his God. Isaiah 50:10

Now this is eternal life: that they may know you, the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom you have sent. John 17:3

I want to know Christ and the power of his resurrection and the fellowship of sharing in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death...Philippians 3:10

The tree...

Decorating the Christmas tree - Esther Jones cheers the place up a bit.    I put the Christmas tree up today. I always enjoy that, although it had its trying moments this time. Gerald is my resident "bah, humbug" person. He feels it's too early for carols and Christmas trees and was verbose in his expression of the same. It was discouraging. I finally told him off saying he was stealing my joy. He was somewhat better after that.

Midway through, John came home and he'd been using. He had no money left...no rent...but it won't take him long to make that up. He was honest with me. Thank you for that, Lord. And he was miserable...angry with himself, shamed, in tears, so frustrated. He wants so badly to be out of the drug culture. He'd been trying very hard since he got out of jail a month ago, attending meetings, going to church, going to work....but the stuff of life was piling up on his shoulders and his body was crying out for drugs. When he got his cheque, he gave up fighting.

So I heard him out, read a piece I'd just recently read from the CR devotional about coming to believe...seeing that those who successfully overcame their addictions did so with faith in God. Then I prayed for him and sent him off to have a hot shower. When I went upstairs he was sleeping.

I finished the tree and ordered a pizza for the two Johns, Gerald, Zoltan and myself. John L. is going to church tomorrow with John B. I'll be going to Guelph with my sons and Rod's girlfriend. John Longbottom's birthday is tomorrow and we had hoped to take him out for dinner but he's not in good humour and will not be going. Sara, Pat's girlfriend, was also to go but I guess she's working. So we'll go check out Byron and Nicole's new digs, go for lunch together, and just hang out together for a while. My three sons. I love those times.

John Longbottom came by and saw the dresser in the driveway and was really upset that I was getting rid of it. It was a pretty stressful day, but the fact that John L. came home and was honest and desperate about wanting to change picked me up. It was refreshing after Jesse's dishonesty. I put Jesse out on Friday. He came by this morning and said he slept outside. He left as soon as he knew his cheque was available.

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Readying for the tree...

Today is my first day of vacation. Long awaited. I just realized I forgot to have breakfast with Jesus this morning. We never know what the day will hold, and His nourishment is so important in giving us strength to deal with life's stuff.

Last night I came across a crack pipe in the dining room made from an inhaler. Must have fallen out of Jesse's pocket. Previously last evening, he lied to gullible me about his dealer threatening his life if he didn't give him $20 against the debt he owes him. I fell for it and gave him the twenty, and he promised to be home in an hour. He got home this morning. I told him to pack his stuff and leave when his uncle arrives with his cheque tonight. He's too dangerous for me and my household to have living here. I gave him a chance. He's not ready yet to drop the drugs.

John L. got home from jail. He had his hearing yesterday and will be doing weekends in prison for a while for his breech. It was good to have him home again and he was certainly grateful to be back here. He's off to work today.

I began this day with a circle meeting. Ray took me to see the newly renovated half-way house. They plan to hold an "out of the cold" there too. When I got home, I began rearranging furniture and cleaning to make room for the Christmas tree. Gerald helped with the vacuuming. 

Tonight I'm helping Shelley put on the Christmas meal at Knights Table. I'll be scrubbing pots. That's always a fun time helping out there. Tomorrow, I'll put up the tree. Sunday, I go to Guelph with my kids and John, our friend. I hope he's well enough to travel. We are renting a van so the boys, the girlfriends, John and I can all travel in ease. It's John's birthday and we're taking him out to dinner. John practically raised my kids when their Dad left. We've been friends for almost 24 years.

Monday, I'm attending a seminar on talking down violent and abusive men. Eileen is supposed to pick me up but I may have to attend with her coworker as her father-in-law is dying and she may have to skip this one.
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Had a call from my driver. She's sick and nervous and can't make it to drive me to Newmarket. The roads will be slippery as it snowed last night. So, I'm washing up Jesse's bedding and cleaning out his area instead.

Leaky Basement? Damtite and Korit Sales can help!  I discovered the basement's leaking again. All this rain. And it's producing a whitish mold. Never saw that before. I'll have to do a little research and see how to handle it.

My brother does Theophostic counseling and I borrowed some tapes on the subject from the church. Once Gerald leaves, I think I'll stretch out on the couch and watch Pt. 2. There may be some pointers I can use with my guys.

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It is a dark and stormy night.....The letter box is clattering in the high winds. Sleet mixed with rain is blowing across the yard and the distant rumble of thunder gives voice to the storm that is descending bringing plunging temperatures and snow overnight. Kind of a spooky sort of night. And a "fright movie" on TV, too.

So...Jesse's coming back from detox on Monday. John L.'s bail hearing is Monday. John B. is isolating, sad in his room stewing over his ex's lack of cooperation in regards to allowing his access to his children. Looks like it will go to court.  Carl's just in after traveling to Credit Valley Hospital just to find his meeting was canceled. Derek's gone to Cornwall, his usual weekend routine. Zoltan is moving a friend's girlfriend and helping her set up house. Gerald is watching TV, planning to leave for his father's farm in the morning. And I'll be going to Newmarket to see Mom tomorrow.

My son Patrick called tonight. Unusual in itself. But he talked and talked and that's highly unusual. His half sister called him from England. I saw her once in Jamaica when she was 10. She has three kids now. She wants to pay Patrick's way to England but he's not sure he can go with a record. She's another Nicole. We seem to be inundated with Nicoles. Patrick confirmed he can still come to Guelph with us Dec 10 and likely Sara too. He said John Longbottom was very unwell. I must call him tomorrow to see how he is.

Well my fingers on my right hand tingle a lot. It's the diabetes. It's getting to be a nuisance. I really blew it today and ate a maple covered pudding filled donut at work and a piece of strawberry-rhubarb pie. I had been doing fairly well since Tuesday. Back on track tomorrow.

My devotional today reminded me to keep my focus on Jesus.
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